kamaina

greetings everyone,

this is carson here! i thought that i would write a post since it's been nearly a month. when we lived on maui a couple years ago, we would often go around to places and ask for a kamaina (kama-Inah) discount. this would be something they gave to people that lived there as a discount instead of the usual higher prices that tourists would receive. today, we were at the good life for breakfast and i was taking at a seat at the wheatgrass bar to have my daily dose, and we were talking to some people, and kay, one of the owners told as that we had to be on a waiting list to get a shot! their production could not keep up with the demand...(see notes:microeconomics below) so we walked away dejectedly and sat in a swing and began to order breakfast. kay came over, and he handed us a wheatgrass shot to share just because we go there all the time and they know us. thusly, we received a nice little kamaina treat! do not fear, for we are on the list now and will be having wheatgrass often now that we are aware of the rules of the game. some call this tasty little drink the elixir of life, the fountain of youth (if indeed there ever was a fountain springing forth wheatgrass from it's heavenly depths),others call it liquid gold, still others call it disgusting and very green. but this foamy little treat tastes like candy to me, and the owner kay who makes it brings forth a passion to rival the movies and (i think) he has the clearest blue eyes because he indulges in 1-3 shots every day! i myself also declared that i will have a shot of wheatgrass every day from now on, though melissa added a nice amendment of that being when it's remotely possible to have them. for in cambodia we might be in a place that does not regularly supply wheat grass to the residents of their city/town. when i get home though, i plan on growing my own wheatgrass, an experiment that i plan on being highly successful...unlike my kombucha growing which failed in a very smelly and not attractive sort of way. i have also been cooking up in my little brain a couple other business ideas that i'm very excited about! both of them are creative projects that i will be able to do when i get home! one involves photography, and the other involves refurbishing of a little something that everyone likes! however, i will not let the cat out of the bag, so to speak, until i am home and the process is in place. but i do know that it will bring joy and spendor to all that would like to partake!
lately it seems that little things like "when i get home" keep popping into my brain more and more. we talk about them, and then excuse them as being something not part of our reality right now, and so as scarlett o'hara would say "i won't think about that right now, i'll think about that tomorrow" and so on and so on. one thing i will let out of the bag though, is this little kitty cat of inspiration i have found... recently i discovered that my brain can indeed occupy and memorize new information every day! and as i mentioned a while back, i plan on learning a language (spanish or italian)..and also, i am going to start memorizing poems and stories. i have long since wanted to have a story, around 5-10 minutes that would be a "signature" story of sorts...and now i realize that i just want to have all different types of words in a methodical order that i can share which i enjoy. i shared this with our friends dan and chloe two nights ago at some hot springs, as we soaked under the stars, and she shared a poem that she loves. her voice changed, as i found poetry often does when memorized and spoken aloud, and word for word she spoke with strength and beauty and my mind filled with the imagery that she shared. she finished, and i yelled "YES!" in ecstatic delight that she fulfilled exactly what i was talking about, and found the space to do that through my sharing of an idea that i had. it was a really special night.
yesterday continued a rollercoaster that melissa and i have been on of traveling with a companion all the time! sometimes it is easy, sometimes very difficult... sometimes it is really hard to see the other person with clear eyes that are not clouded. yesterday my eyes were clouded with my past and a fear of commitment, and a way that i would be giving up a part of myself by not having in my life a time when i wasn't in a relationship (as we've been together since i was 21..5 years!). as we talked (for hours) the clouds lifted and i was able to give up all the fears and ways that i had been holding back as a partner to her and of not giving fully..and letting myself experience life fully. phew! luckily she was very patient with me and we hugged for a long time afterwards. i got peace and freedom within the new bounds of our relationship to be powerful and open...something that i hadn't had in a little while since i had started feeling that way..what a life! and here we are in pai, thailand. no matter where you go, there you are.
(shouldn't that be an expression??)
well, that's all for now, hope everyone back home is doing amazing and enjoying life!
much love,
carson